sunny day real estate
raygun
oct. 98
by denise sheppard
"It was the first glorious awakening I ever had, so I was willing to throw
down my favorite things, I had to free everything in my life in order to serve
God, and I Felt that the guys in the band didn't really understand where I was
coming from, I was making assumptions."
Wrapped on this warm day in a bulky army jacket, Sunny Day Real Estate
frontman Jeremy Enigk hunches over a cozy Seattle cafe table, rarely moving,
save when his cigarette-stained hands rise to wring his furrowed brow. sitting
down over tea with guitarist Dan Hoerner (fresh in from his home on the farm,
seeming more Grizzly Adams than Guns n Roses) the pair look like anything but
music legends- underground or otherwise.
This meeting ought to surprise Sunny Day's many dedicated fans for two
fundamental reasons: According to Jeremy Enigk, this is the group's "first
official interview" in the history of their career. More importantly it is
prompted by the impending release of their third disc, How it Feels to be
something on, a recording that was never supposed to happen. After all the
band officially broke up three years ago, a harsh reality made even more
apparent when drummer William Goldsmith and bassist Nate Mendel quickly
resurfaced in Dave Grohl's Foo Fighters.
The most immediate truth that emerges from the attending pair (Goldsmith and
new bassist Jeff Palmer are absent) is their genuine love and enthusiasm
towards the newly- revamped outfit. "We were all proud of each other," Enigk
beams, "and we all respect each other as much as we ever have. I couldn't
imagine playing with any other guys." That opinion is a night and day
difference from a declaration the singer made in December '94 when Jeremy
posted a public response to a band break-up rumor circulating on the internet,
providing lengthy detail of Enigk's crossover into Christianity and how that
decision affected his musical future.
"Naturally I want to sing about it," he wrote, "but there are mixed
feelings about what we could do about me wanting to sing about Christ. one of
the members doesn't mind me singing about Christ, another is very
uncomfortable with the idea of singing about Jesus, and one didn't mind but
now all of the sudden does... Jesus isn't anything thatI want to compromise
with, for he is far more important than this music, financial security or
popularity could ever be."
"Enigk's new found focus put an immediate halt to Sunny Day Real Estate
burgeoning career. Then Pegged as emo-core's next big thing, the group was
shut down just as they started to hit their stride. With nearly three years
of perspective, Enigk responds to his former zeal a tad sheepishly.
"It was one of the biggest decisions I had ever made in my life. I had three
other guys who were my friends, we all had big dreams and talked about what we
wanted to do and i was the one who had to actually make the actual gesture to
get it over."
When co-songwriter/guitarist Hoerner is asked about how it felt at the time
to be figuratively left at the altar, his answer comes with mixed emotions.
"Was it a surprise?" he asks rhetorically. Just the opposite... it was so
obvious. You could just tell that he wasn't there. You know, when you're not
getting along with someone, you love them deeply hut the 99 other floors of
the tower are filled with anger and resentment. So when Jeremy finally told
me," Hoerner adds, "I was overjoyed. I was caught in the trap of needing Sunny
Day. When I knew it was going to be over, aside from wanting to make it as
profitable as possible, I was totally shedding my skin. Waves of filth were
being washed off me, I'm back because the breakup was required to cleanse my
soul."
Enigk admits that his compatriots' reactions come as a huge relief. "With
Dan, that was wonderful, and when William and Nate went off to work in another
band, I was excited for them, i basically felt that i pulled their careers out
from under their feet and then here they are going to be doing something for
Dave Grohl. All I thought was, "Well good for them!"
Jeremy's own intentions were to cease making music publicly forever. "I was
just thinking about being a humble garbage guy or whatever," he says, only
half smiling, as his cohort belly laughs in the background, "I would, of
course, still write songs to God and to myself. Slowly, i realized that i
could perhaps do something for the church, travel and tell my lifelong story
at the age of 18." Enigk shakes his head, acknowledging his well intended but
naive ways, "It was all just pretty insane."
When the musical itch reemerged, Enigk began working on a solo project. The
end result, 1996's The Return of the Frog Queen, was a classically-influenced,
Nick Drak-ian grandiose effort of mellow-cholly that impressed some and
depressed others -- a 180 degree turn from sunny day's thrashing, crashing
anthems. Its creator remains not only unapologetic, he is sincerely proud of
his work. "I love it. Sunny Day is Sunny Day and is this insane thing that i
love. My solo thing is me, it's not the others encouraging me. I'll do
something like that again. I understand that Sunny Day has more of an attack,
more of a likable obviousness, a sparkle..." he drifts off, wistfully.
"Make sure you put that I am the likable obviousness of Sunny Day," laughs
Dan, with a welcome sardonic break, pointing to the tape recorder.
A scant few months after the release of Enigks solo album, rumors started to
fly on the alt.music.hardcore newsgroup that the band might be working
together again. The four did indeed gather together, had a positive
experience writing a few songs and then subsequently decided to release an
album of previously unreleased material along with three or four newly
recorded cuts. A greatest hits from a band with no hits, as it were.
According to the Sub Pop web site, however, any other thoughts were hopelessly
optimistic. The official word: "they're not a band and will not be touring on
this album. They just had some unfinished business." Then contrary to all
other previous information, on August 22, 1997, Sub Pop sent out a press
release stating that "two and a half years after their untimely demise, Sunny
Day Real Estate has reunited and written new material for a third [as yet
untitled] album."
When Enigk hears the whole confusing process repeated back to him, he rolls
his eyes and laughs at it all, "I don't think about things before i dive in,"
he admits. "Truthfully," Hoerner interjects, "as soon as we dipped one toe
into the water, we were drawn in. We were jamming and then all of a sudden it
just snowballed. The momentum was obvious and huge."
The possibilities were raised another notch when Enigk received a phone call
from former Sunny Day drummer William Goldsmith, "Will was asking me to do a
band thing 'cause things with the Foo Fighters weren't going so good... I
think he had already decided to quit. One day I said "alright!" When we knew
it was going to be the three of us, we thought "Why don't we just do Sunny Day
again?"
There were only two glitches in their near perfect plan: the first was
Jeremy's lack of desire to play what he describes as "huge and confusing"
music. "I was on this whole 'road to my soul' concept," muses Enigk, " and
didn't want this insane loud drum thing. But when i thought of who i wanted
to jam with, it always came back to the guys," Fatalistically, according to
the pair, that problem seemed to solve itself. As the troupe got together on
Foo-hiatus periods, the compositions they created were their "best ever"
according to all concerned, and the band, surprisingly , was united in the
kind of music that they all wanted to make; a sound born out of their love for
East Indian melodies, particularly the work of Qawwali legend Nusrat Fateh Ali
Kahn. "It's absolutely a completely new thing for me," exclaims Hoerner
enthusiastically, "and that definitely worked its way into the new sound. I
had come across Nusrat when i first moved out here to the land and it's pretty
much exclusively the only thing i listen to. I said, "Dude, you've got to
check this guy out!' And Jeremy went out, bought one, and fell in love."
"'Roses In Water' [from the new disc] is the perfect example," he continues.
"the guitar phrase at the beginning is something that was directly inspired
from Nusrat but at the same time is a little meditation of my own. I had been
playing it over and over and then when Jeremy heard it, he played something
over top of that and all of a sudden there was the song." Add that influence
to their heightened love of acoustic instruments [particularly guitars and
strings] and the result is unquestionably the work of a kinder, gentler and
more melodically complex Sunny Day.
The group's second, more emotionally taxing problem came to light after the
first few practices: bassist Nate Mendel's ongoing commitment to the Foos.
"'Waiting for Nate' became the theme to our lives," explains Hoerner,
obviously exasperated. "We were waiting for a real person who we so
desperately wanted... but Nate could only do it sometimes. The pressure of
finding something amazing and not being able to do it... it was like and
elastic band pulled back really far, desperate to be let loose."
"In the end." recalls Enigk, "It was us who had to say no because he said,
'Okay, I'll be here then' and wasn't there, and 'Okay then I'll be here then,'
and wasn't there. For us, it became 'let's record the album now!' and that is
exactly what we prepared ourselves to do. Then you look back and your pride
is humbled and you are broken."
Hoerner nods his head furiously in agreement. "Your ego gets the lashing
that it deserves. When you think that you are a part of something so grand
that it couldn't possibly help but attract everyone who should be a part of it
and them someone so clearly says 'not gonna do it...' he trails off, still
clearly hurt. At this rather somber moment, Jeremy and Dan's faces suddenly
light up and the duo simultaneously yell, "William!" and wave as the drummer
saunters in, unexpected. "We always had an 'all original members or nothing'
deal," Goldsmith offers, on the topic at hand about a year and a half, we
deserved it. It's the same band, the same feeling. It was really hard,
though. Nate wanted to play on the record but it was me ultimately that said,
' i don't think it would be a good idea." With a week to go before scheduled
recording, the group scrambled to find a suitable replacement. They would find
it in the unassuming Jeff Palmer [ex-Geffen artist the Mommyheads]. "We
started playing and immediately he and I locked on," recalls Goldsmith.
Before the chance arises to ask any 'second thoughts' questions regarding
Williams's decision to leave the Foo Fighters, he makes his situation crystal
clear. "When we started playing, there was this huge feeling of relief. I had
some good times playing with other people and I have some side projects but as
far as my passion, in playing with them this huge weight came off my shoulders
and I felt like I could play again. No fear of letting whatever is in here {he
points to his heart] out, no fear of letting go."
As far as Enigk is concerned, he too seems to have found what he's been
looking for: a balance between his God, his music, and the band of his dreams.
"I'm totally passionate about Sunny Day Real Estate. I'm extremely excited at
every song, he concludes, intensely and most sincerely. "Im surprised and I'm
moved to tears at every song."
thanks to laura "Nexusnixed@aol.com" for typing this article !!!